Help! I need love. #testimony
So, about 2 weeks ago I saw this video of Paul Carrick Brunson where he talked about being at his END, his wits END. He had spent an entire year, an entire $1M on filming his new docuseries, and he was playing the waiting game, to see if the series would be picked up. in that waiting time, he began to grow sad, depressed, and worried that all that hard work might not come through. In his darkest hour, in his darkest days, during his personal health ‘cleanse’ he was literally lying on the floor of the bathroom with no HOPE or energy to keep pushing. Until he saw the light, a shining, sunny, bright sunlight shining in his eyes, so bright he knew it was a sign. This video he shared spoke to me so strongly, I literally checked his pages often to see what ‘happened next’ in the coming days, weeks.
The REASON I was so drawn to this video, and his happenings was because, that was me, this past winter. I have to be honest. Like Marvin says, I was a child, lost with no hope. I had a job, I had clients, some, and I literally just had no more hope to continue the journey of this game of entrepreneurship in my graphic design business. I was in “hiding” as my mom says! I had no more energy for the risk, I had not patience to find the reward, I had no more willingness inside to make one more sale, and I clearly had no spark inside to create. During those times, heavily through the holidays, I seriously would lie on the floor of my office, look at books, magazines, and just stare blankly at my computer. I KNEW that I had work to do, I knew I had friends on the line, I even knew that I had hot sales leads in the funnel, I knew I had to work and make $ so that my family could have a good holiday, so that my kids would have what they needed, but I was done. So done. So over the fact that I had just made it 5 years in business, doubling sales every year; all that did not matter though.
At that time, as for the past decade, I had a loving, supportive and sometimes obnoxious husband, who loves me so much, yet I did not care to discuss any of my pain, my struggles and fears with him at the time. I did not choose to continue the hustle, the struggle, the sales calls and the banter back and forth with clients regarding my designs. Yet, I had no other option. I had no job opportunities (full time ones) knocking on my door, I could not work any more overtime in my p/t and could not make another sale for the life of me without completing the work that was on my plate, and also on my long ass to-do list! I just quit, momentarily.
Until one day, and I am not sure he remembers; but one day, my goooood ol’ entrepreneurial friend Quinn Riley (Q) messages me on facebook. Of course, while on the floor, quitting my business I still went on facebook, I just did not post. He messages me and says —- “Hey Jules, yo, homegirl, where are ya at? Your market needs ya. It’s time to come out of hibernation.” —- yep.
And that was all I needed to hear. I think it was around January; where I had praised God I made it through the depressing holidays, he jolted me that day. I thought to myself, Q knows — he totally knows that I had just quit my business! Thinking “how the hell did he know” anyways? But yep, it was just the tug at my heart, the beat-down I needed in the IM that day to pull me up, and out, take a breath, have a coffee, and get back to work. The week to follow, I was on a creative high, just like business as usual. Thank you Q!
So, saying allllllllllll that to say, I have to thank Paul for sharing his transparent story of lying on his floor, waiting for a sign, hoping for a breakthrough. He is an amazingly honest, real as they can get, successful and enjoyable entrepreneur to look up to, and see how it’s done! I am so grateful for his stories and posts; they are real as they can get, and they have inspired me to take a step forward in the video world, sharing my experiences and truths. I am very excited for the new show to air, and I KNOW it will become a full time docu-series, as they hope! Blessings <3JMH
#ineedlove Don’t quit. If you do quit you betta come back my friend, and love yourself enough to think twice before you quit again! The battle is not yours! Use your gifts, and talents to the fullest, and love yourself FIRST! #message